i went up to port washington, wisconsin this weekend. it was really nice. kind of like a miniature east-coast but on lake michigan. well, at least the east coast you often see in movies. the parts near the ocean i mean. ok.

do you have enough of what you need to survive?

i was wondering lately if all we do is find things we want and just try to get as much of that as we can with little regard for anything else. i mean in a freudian kind of way i suppose. take sex for example. or whatever utility you might be getting out of a relationhip if sex isn't the best part of it. do all the decisions i make and all the sacrifices i make and the fights i stand down ... are those all done to help ensure that i get what i've come to need?

and what is a need. i think the term has become quite bastardized lately. what we need and what we want are NOT the same thing. i realize that's not a very original statement, but it is damn true and worth analyzing next time you get upset when you feel someone is trampling over your rights.

and SPEAKING of rights, how about the fourth of july? i saw some nice fireworks last night but couldn't help think how many men heard explosions and saw flashes like those and feared for their lives while defending this country in one of its numerous wars. i sure hope the whole middle east crap can end soon.

it's been so hot out, but it really hasn't been that bad. of course the only time i'm really exposed to it is when i've gone out to get have a smokarette. and then i usually complain endlessly about the heat. but when i'm driving it's not too bad, even though i don't have air conditioning in my car. i guess maybe it's because i drive 80 miles an hour to get home.

i ate a bunch of ice cream and i'm lactose intolerant.

my family visited this weekend. it was kind of stressful and so i decided i needed a day off. i did not go to work on monday. i haven't played hookey in a good long time. it was great. i highly recommend that everyone play hookey once in the next few months if they can.

it's just a good feeling...so close to a childhood one. to stay at home when nothing is wrong. and lying to your office is like lying to convince your mom to let you stay home. then you bust out the video games or whatever else you were told you were too sick to do since you didn't go to school. excuse me if this is not making much sense. it's probably cause i'm fake sick.

best song ever made nomination -- You Spin Me Round (Like a Record) by Dead or Alive. shutup i'm right.

so as an update to what has happened since i stopped posting about 2 years ago...i guess i should fill you in on some things. that is, assuming people have gone to this page every day in hopes of a random guy posting about his less-than-exciting life. well, i suppose there's no sense in insulting myself. that's not really fair.

i graduated with an art degree in december of 03. i moved in with my girlfriend immediately after. got a job working with developmentally disabled population in the area.

proposed to stephanie in may of 04. got in some bad fights in 04 and early 05 and really worked things out, partially as a result of me going to counseling to deal with some emotional issues i was having.

got promoted to QMRP (basically a case manager) in my office in march of 05 and working there now. wedding is booked for september 3rd of this year.


there's my life in short.

i had a good weekend. i got to see most of my family and some friends i have not seen for far too long.

there's something great about traveling for the weekend when the weather is nice. something nice about seeing hills and trees instead of flat fields for a change.

on the way home i imagined the clouds in the distance were really far-off mountains

I think I should start writing down my dreams again. I found a book in the back of the aforementioned car (it had sat for almost 2 years) and in it I had started writing down the dreams I had.

I will list them for you.

10/28/03 - Dreamed I got off work early and could go see Stephanie but had no car. Dreamed me, Matt/Henry and Jason went to see George Lucas who interviewed us for parts in the next star wars film.

10/29/03 - Dreamed me and Stephanie were wandering around a huge house looking for the most insanely large bedroom and shower. Dreamed I found a dog similar to Lanka in a dorm and planned to keep them both. Dreamed I broke glasses.

11/04/04 - Dreamed I wrecked a semi into my dad's Conquest while trying to avoid running over a dying bird in a plastic takehome box. Dreamed Stephanie was coming down to see me that day.

I'm back. I'm not sure why.

I started thinking about this blog thing lately. Part of it is because I got my old car back. I have been through 4 cars in 2 years and now hopefully have a reliable one. My old one, renewed. Frankensteined, if you will.

A lot has happened since I last posted. Good things and bad. I guess I could say, "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times".

Well times aren't bad now, but I'm feeling particularly down today. I think it's because I went to a funeral today. One of my clients died.

YOU'RE INVITED TO A PARTY!!!!!
who: you and your friends
when: anytime after dark
where: your place
what: action figure party

this is a concept of mine. everyone brings an action figure and acts out their dialogue and behaviors through that figure, manipulating the figures as if everyone were children playing for the entire duration of the party.

please RSVP and be sure to bring an action figure that would add life to the event.
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what toy will i bring? hmm. i'll have to think on that some and get back to myself.